Day 278: FAILURE

October 5th, 2011I have failed many times in my life sadly, but today one of my failures hit me directly in the face in the editing room of the Communications building. After going to work early in the morning and working on some excel data inputs, I went to a WTCC Meeting – where we talked about a couple of things: Screamzone, Kayaking (instead of Snorkeling), as well as Disneyland [November 19th! YEEE]. In attendance was Nick, myself, Bee-John, Gavin, & Elviana. When all was said and done, I delivered Geetha her public speaking book at Sixth, and afterwards she gave me free lunch at Foodworx. While there I broke my vegetarian diet by eating a bite of pepperoni pizza. AND BOY, WAS IT WORTH IT!. Delicious. I figured there’s essentially no point in being vegetarian. Sure, you might live longer, but life isn’t going to be nearly as fun. I might give it another tackle somewhere down in the line in life, but as of now, as a college student, it’s essentially too difficult to re-adjust my diet quickly enough to satisfy my own needs. Afterwards was my Polisci class which was quasi-Decent, and then video editing of “Psycho” at the Communications building. Rejection dealt itself a hand in my face as my TeachforAmerica application rejected me. No group interview for me. I went to Geisel afterwards where Geetha met up with me, and I publicly displayed emotions. AND BY THE WAY, WHO THE HELL CARES ABOUT STEVE JOBS. HE WAS A THIEF OF STEVE WORZIAK ANYWAY. I joined Geetha as she grabbed dinner at Panda Express, before she left. I went to ACCB’s game night for roughly 20 minutes, chowing down 5 slices of pepperoni pizza. DELICIOUS.
I joined Bee-John at Young Americans for Liberty, whose meeting decided to be in Warren SAC today. FUNNY. Bee-John came in with a giant yellow redcoat as we discussed various things at the meeting including the terrible wars in Afghanistan and Iraq, as well as the Euro economic crisis. After reading a short list of the Occupy Wall Street demands, a couple of the members called the person who wrote the list, and we debated with him the merits of his argument. He essentially gave a well rehearsed answer and gave a long monologue instead of actual debating, but it was still pretty funny. I joined Bee-John as he ate his vegetarian TapEx afterwards before going to the study lounge and studying Shitnamese, snapping a picture of the Price Center through the glass walls. Geetha joined me, and eventually we left before it got too dark and scary.
FUTURE = UNCERTAIN. FAILURE = CERTAIN. I SUCK. I SUCK. I SUCK. Now that I don’t know what to do with my life, I’m at a crossroads, one I will probably never be able to escape…. FUCK MY LIFE.