After reading several of my previous posts from prior years of blogging on Xanga and Blogspot, I tend to see how much I dramatize and melodramatize the details of my life. Regardless of this construed writing dynamic, I feel like it succesfully captures the attendance of my audience that is reading, if any.
Now, before I get into the details of the past two week, let’s just say, I’ll cut back on the details of WHY, because, I feel like I’ll be crossing over very dangerous territory with my very own no-no – TMI, too much information.
Okay, here goes!
I’ve decided some mental therapy will help me get through the coping process. So here’s a list of all the things I’m grateful for in life:
1) Family: Regardless of anything you get in life, as long as your family is still behind you, that’s all you really need.
2) Friends: To both my friends in high school (whom I apologize for not being able to hang out with this summer), and to my friends in college, you are the one thing that is keeping me going still! It would not possible without any of you. And you all know who you are.
3) Facebook. Perhaps this is a tad bit the same as friends, but facebook is a most excellent invention. Stemming from the success of social networking sites such as Myspace and Friendstar, Facebook continually is used by millions and gives me the ability to connect with whoever I want whenever I want.
4) Television. As superficial as it may sound, television is keeping me going. Whether it’s to watch drama-filled fights on Big Brother every Sunday, Tuesday, and Thursday… or whether to highly anticipate the return of Glee (9.9.9) and 24 (1.17.10), there’s always something to watch. Always. Especially during the school year.
5) Independence. I may not always like this word, or this topic in general because it tends to mean cooking for myself / making microwave meals. Shrugs. Next year when I have a dining plan I won’t have to worry about all this, but still…. it’s a great feeling knowing I’m working for nobody but myself, and living for nobody but myself.
6) Progress. As long as I feel like my life is progressing somehow, it should feel important to live. If it’s going to stay stagnant like an episode of CSI or Law and Order, it’ll never be okay. It instead should be like an episode of 24 where something radically different happens every hour (regardless of how plausible this might actually be in the real world).
Which brings us to the next point… All of these things are necessarily important in living a happy life, but in having all of them, do they really ultimatley make you happy still? The answer is up to you to decide, as well as me.
Regardless of whether it is believed to be so or not, a paradigm shift is required for my life to feel like it’s progressing. Sure, I’m going to college and attempting to get a degree (Bachelor’s in Communications & History), but as long as it DOESN’t feel like it’s moving forward, it’s not moving forward in my book.
As far as I know, here’s what I have next year planned:
1) Classes
2) Work @ Environmental, Health, and Safety.
Is that seriously it? Is my life that stagnant and stale that I only have two things that are pushing me to where I am going to go? I certainly hope not.
A life change is in the works. I’ll let you know what I ultimately decide to do when I ultimately decide to do it, but for now, it’s all up to speculation. Frat? Internship? Â Club? Regardless of what is the choice, it needs to push me the right direction, to make my next three years in college feel like the best three years of my life .
