As an allusion back to my middle and high school days, this week theme’s will be EMO songs. EMO songs entail songs that express lots of emotions, mostly in the form of sadness and teenage angst. Even though I’m clearly not as “emo” as I once was, I still carry many of the scars that have hurt me before in the past.
Despite these scars, I am able to manage an independent lifestyle – where today, I went to the pharmacy by myself, went for a nice little stroll in 103 weather by myself, and went to grocery shop by myself as well.
Despite some loneliness that might hit me time and time again, I do have a good support system in the form of family and friends. Today, I coordinated the arrangement of my siblings and their significant others to a birthday dinner in Rowland Heights for my niece. Due to “technical difficulties” though, she came late and so we settled for some Thai food and Creamistry for dessert.
I went back and took a picture with my niece anyway, for future nostalgic purposes.
If we’re going to be real, my emo roots will stick with me forever! The scars may stick with me, but so will the memories of how I ultimately persevered over all of them.
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
